Hello Again, And Finnegan Begin Again

Well I'm not sure how this will go. I may lose my old audience, but that's ok. If my work is no longer interesting or helpful to you, then good journey. If our paths cross again, I will wish you the same.
I am changing this blog to be more intensely about recovering from childhood abuse.

In my case it was mental, physical, and though I don't consider it abuse, so much as an assault, I was also raped on one occasion. Now people tell me admitting this is brave. And I guess it is. But not because no one else out there deals with stuff like this. In fact, in much of my experience, everyone deals with trauma, though it varies in severity, degree, and how often. No the bravery comes in facing it. The bravery comes in telling the truth. Because everyone else wants me to be ashamed of this.

Now this isn't something they would admit to. No, they are not monsters, at least on the surface. But underneath, everyone wants the truth buried deep. And when one person admits these truths, it encourages others to admit theirs. Not everyone is prepared to admit, to heal. Because healing hurts. I won't lie to you. It hurts like hell. So instead, people want these truths to stay hidden. Stay buried. "It doesn't matter. You can't change the past. It's over now." They say, and brush the pain under the rug, as if it never existed in the first place.

But the problem with this is, the pain still exists. Sure left alone it will eventually scar over. Except you will then end up with changed, and somewhat defective behaviors based on your subconscious reactions to your past pain. We call it many things, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Personality Disorder, Depression, Bipolar, etc. You are set up to remain in unhealthy relationships with abusive people. It is not unlike someone suffering from severe trauma. The body compensates. But it does so to the detriment of other parts, until eventually you are twisted, and the beautiful creation is distorted, and broken. This is as true of mental trauma, as it is of physical trauma. We all know one person affected by this. And we all know that both physical trauma, and mental trauma twist the body, and mind. Left untreated, with therapy of some shape or form, we are deformed, mentally or physically.

Child Abuse and Mental Illness

So this is my therapy, since I can't afford a therapist right now.

Good Journey My Friend.